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A fresh and funky OC ask meme for your viewing pleasure: Ishmael edition

(This took me like an hour adtyhjk)

Which should be saved-- a bus of innocent people, or a loved one?

Currently, he doesn't have anyone that he's particularly close to, or loved. Ultimately, he would probably try to save both, possibly making it unable for him to save either in the process.

'''You meet a man who has killed someone and done time for it before. Does this factor into how you treat him? Can he truly escape that sin?'''

Ishmael would be a hypocrite for deeply judging someone for doing so when he's killed people himself. It would depend on the circumstances surrounding it-- sometimes that's your only option. He would probably ask the person why they did it, and go from there. Other than that, it wouldn't affect him much, he'd probably just be a little nervous when meeting them.

'''If you could jump back through time to save a loved one's life, would you? Despite what it might do to the timeline? To everyone else? Do you believe it is their fate to die regardless?'''

He wouldn't take the risk of screwing with the timeline. If he could bring someone back with no strings attached, he'd do it in a heartbeat.

'''You have a secret you swore not to reveal. But this secret it the only thing that would prove your innocence in a separate matter. Is it worth risking your own well-being for the secret? Or would you betray the trust given to you?'''

Ishmael would keep his mouth shut and take the consequence. Trust is an important thing to him, and he knows how it feels when it's broken. He wouldn't want anyone else to feel that way if he could help it.

Is it better to hurt someone before they hurt you, or let yourself be walked over and hurt by others?

To be walked over and hurt by others. He doesn't typically do it intentionally, but Ishmael tends to see the best in people, to a fault. There's always a chance someone won't hurt him, and he'd rather himself hurt than for him to inflict unjust pain, or pain in general.

'''If you tell the truth, an evil person gets to walk away free. If you lie, you may be able to send them away like they deserve. Is honesty worth more than justice?'''

Honesty is worth more. Lying could always come back to bite him later, and he believes the universe has its way of making sure that those who deserve it get their due.

'''You have the key to immortality in your hands-- but not for free. If you want it, as a price, your worst enemy also gains immortality. Is it worth it?'''

NO.

If you could gain as much money as you wanted for losing a sense, would you do it?

Ishmael has no use for money, so he wouldn't.

Can people be held accountable for things people close or related to them did, or are they innocent?

You can't control the actions of other people, so they're innocent. However, if they provide that person a means to do what they do, then they're responsible, at least partially.

'''If a lot of people, possibly innocent people, have to die in order to make real change, is it worth it? Can you live with their deaths even if it helps people in the present?'''

Depends on the real change. The concept of 'the greater good' is rather sticky with him, and he prefers to avoid it where he can. Generally, though, to him it's not worth it.

'''Imagine there is a beast that craves attention. If you ignore it, despite being deadly, it will leave you alone. Could you live like that? Even if it possibly attacked others? Would you try and challenge something that is unknown?'''

Ishmael's pretty good at ignoring things, but if it started to attack people he would challenge it.

'''If someone stole something and you stole it back, is that a good deed, a bad deed, or one of equal worth? Are you better than the original thief?'''

Equal worth. He's only taking back what is his, and righting the wrong done to him.

Could you sacrifice yourself for the good of everyone else?

Wholeheartedly and without hesitation. He considers himself expendable, and has already made peace with that fact. He wouldn't want anyone else to do it in his stead.

'''What of love? Say you discover your lifelong crush on another has finally been reciprocated...but they are currently dating a family member or a dear friend that the crush feels responsible to honor. Do you force the breakup? Date on the side? Bottle it up forever?'''

He'd probably pine and be a little emo about it, but overall he would value their happiness over everything else. Eventually, he'd let it go.

Is lying to gain other's approval more important than being genuine and hated?

Lying gets you caught up in all sorts of bad stuff in the end. If you lie for approval, when would you truly be yourself? If you aren't loved for who you are and instead for your facade, what's the point?

'''Have you ever contemplated killing someone? Who and why? Would you ever act on it? Are you frightened that you might?'''

He's contemplated killing Shiloh, for obvious reasons. He wouldn't be able to bring himself to do it in cold blood, though. There would have to be an immediate reason for him to do so. Same with Oswin/the Hyena. He's also terrified of the fact that one day he might just snap and start going haywire on some innocent mortals. That's something he's most afraid of, is slipping back into his soldier mentality. It's happened before, and he doesn't know if he'd be able to shake it off again. That's one of the reasons he tries to avoid conflict, to minimize the risk of him losing himself.

'''Have you ever gotten sheer joy out of hurting someone else, either mentally or physically? To whom or why? Did it scare you?'''

He'd never admit to it.

'''Have you ever done something morally wrong? If it's morally wrong, do you regret it?'''

He hates most of the stuff he did the last few years or so of his mortal life. He tries to rectify it when he can, and will often visit the once war-torn cities to offer his healing services.

What is more likely a thought to you-- that this world is wrong or that you are wrong?

The world is wrong.

Are there people in this world who, no matter how much time and penitence is given, should never be forgiven?

Depends on the person and what they've done. It would take a lot for him not to forgive someone, and even with Shiloh he still feels guilt, like it's his fault she did what she did.

'''Are there people that you think the world would be better without? If you could erase them out of existence without physically murdering them, would you?'''

There are people he would like to erase (though he'd never say who), but if given the opportunity, he probably wouldn't.

'''How do you feel about having an intimate relationship with someone you don't love? What if they love you in return? Does that make you feel guilty?'''

Ishmael would stop the relationship as soon as he realized he didn't love them. As much as he hates confrontation, he wouldn't want to lead someone on, even if they had feelings for him.

'''Could you ever become your own hero? Is that a role you can fufil, or is it something you look to others for?'''

He doesn't really look for heroes. He's typically satisfied and proud of his actions as a deity, so he doesn't feel the need.

'''How do you feel about tears? Are they cowardly and weak? Do you cry? Would you consider that shameful?'''

Bruh he cries all the time, usually out of overwhelming emotion. It's not uncommon to see him bawling over baby animals.

What is more important to you: An idea of yours is being used or appreciated or the credit for that idea being yours and yours alone?

Ishmael would much rather see an idea be used. He doesn't care about credit-- more than a few medical discoveries have come about with a gentle nudge from him to researchers.

'''Is your personal happiness more important than anything else in the world? Than fame? Than the happiness of others?'''

Ishmael would choose to be sad for a thousand years if it meant the rest of the world was happy. While he likes when things work out so he's not sad, it's not the end-all-be-all if the outcome he believes is right would impact him negatively.

'''How far would you go to achieve a dream or ideal? Does it matter who suffers? Does it matter if you suffer?'''

He would persue a dream, as long as no one suffers for it. If he suffers for it, it doesn't matter to him, so long as no one else is, either.

'''How long would you wait for the one you love? A year? Fifteen years? Forever? Could you honestly be loyal to an unfufilled love?'''

Ishmael would be willing to wait a good long while, but at some point he would move on. He can't spend his life waiting for someone he's not sure will show up.

'''Is genius equal to hard work? Does a genius deserve praise for doing well without effort? Are they above us?'''

Geniuses aren't superior, and they deserve praise as much as anyone else. They're typically the ones who make the world a better place, after all.

'''Do we live in a world of parallels? Can there be no hope without grief? No happiness without suffering? Or is a utopia possible?'''

As much as he'd love to live in a world without suffering, he knows it's not possible. He only hopes that the good outweighs the bad for everyone.

'''What it more important to you? Being respected and praised by your elders, or being looked up to and championed by those younger or of the same age?'''

Being looked up to, though he's uncomfortable with the idea of it. He has problems with authority figures (past trauma woot woot) and will often try to buck expectations, even if they're positive. He dislikes the idea of an 'elder' having high expectations of him, to the point where he will intentionally sabotage himself so that he underperforms.

If you could choose to remove certain feelings such as anger, confusion, or sadness, would you remove them?

No. Emotions, while sometimes overwhelming, are part of who you are. He sometimes struggles with his status as a mortal-turned-diety, and he feels that removing emotions would further separate him from humanity.

'''If you could wipe certain memories from your head, would you? What memories?'''

Depends on when he would be asked. Typically, no, but if he's having a particularly rough go of it, he would remove his memories of war.

'''What path appeals to you more? An exciting dream that leaves you possibly penniless or a drab existence where you have steady success?'''

Exciting dream! Life's boring without a little risk.

'''Is every person in this world wholly unique or can they be categorized? Can they be grouped and mentally dissected? Are you just another sheep in the flock or the unique soul?'''

People are unique, and categorizing them as the same is dangerous.