Thread:YingHe/@comment-36159587-20190627224346/@comment-36159587-20190710043343

I kind of want to know whether I have the capability, like my mom, to retain friendships, even if I don't contact them often/frequently. I always hear her talking with friends from very long ago (who hadn't contacted her in, like, months) like they'd just talked yesterday.

If I left the wiki or chat for two months...would I be able to do that?Or is it precisely because I fear that I can't maintain friendships in that way that I essentially force myself to go to chat every day, consistently?

I don't want chat to be a burden, honestly...and I've been trying to keep it that way. But, sometimes it feels forcing of myself to do that. Like I'm wasting my time on there all the time when I check and there are no messages. Or that I'm just making my personality worse when I stare at a chat with no "active" people on it, but not "Away", and wonder if I'm being left out with the PMs or they're talking on another platform.

Mom's always telling me that friendships can be proven if people are still friends after periods of extended time without contact, and that friendships are actually prone to being hurt if there's too much contact. And, I've always believed that friendships can be proven, too, if there's a lot of contact and people don't hurt each other.

But, is it just me and my naivety? After all, people hurt each other, intentionally or not. And I'm terrible at explaining, too, when I'm hurt, and I also can't tell when I hurt someone else. It's either hurt or be hurt, and I have yet to find some way around it.

Can a relationship still stay intact if two people, or more, have already hurt each other? Online, or otherwise? I still retain my forum beliefs, but is it easier to read each other in face, or less when it comes to the Internet? I wonder.

-Galaxian-