Thread:YingHe/@comment-36159587-20190602041917/@comment-36159587-20190602213817

Song evaluation...

This song is essentially about two people leaving each other. It causes them sadness, but their story makes it necessary for doing so. In my view, those two people are Kenshin and Galaxian, and this song is sung by Galaxian.

"有些话没说 有些梦没做

而我们只剩下我

用微弱烟火 换一个漩涡

你腾空 我坠落"

Galaxian's evaluating his/their losses: They haven't talked, and they haven't set some goals together. In the end, "we" only left "I" (the name of this song is "When 'We' Turned into 'I'". As seen from that fluff/angst thread a bit ago, GalaxE came up to Kenshin not just because he thought the older god was trustworthy, but because he saw a similar sort of loneliness--both didn't know their pasts. So, he thought they would be able to relate, and as such, tried to become closer. For a while, as many probably do recall seeing, GalaxE was one of the closest to the god of weapons. However, after Kenshin left, it turned into just Galaxian again, even as he waited. Then, as he expressed--he tried to prove his worth to Kenshin, leaving to go on that spy mission.

But when he came back, Kenshin had his own family, barely having even talked to him at all. This is the "rise" that Galaxian is referring to--while he himself has "fallen", in a way, back to loneliness and solitude.

"不是不流泪 就不怕天黑

成熟是对愿望撤退

我南飞 你向北"

Galaxian then evaluates what happened. Just like the lyrics show, he knows that one doesn't simply not fear the dark if one doesn't cry. To himself, it's not that he doesn't mind the loss of his mentor/sensei, just because he doesn't show it--it's not that he's not fearful, but hiding his feelings. As he says, maturity is letting wishes fly--and in this case, letting go of what he had hoped would happen with him and his sensei, as Kenshin went one way, and he went the other. It's not that he's not afraid of what happened to the two of them, but that he's just not accepting it.

"一个人困惑 一个人跳脱

这片荒漠

时间的飞沙 摧眼泪成花

会开好的

孤独与我 象久违的朋友

陪我看着没有你的天空

相信一切......值得 "

Galaxian has done things by himself after Kenshin's leave--destroying Rune's crystal ball, saying farewell to Rina, just getting away from all of his strongest relationships. He has "worried by himself, fled by himself", and as time passes on, he has cried a lot by himself as well.

Yet, he still tries to reassure himself, that all is well--and that it isn't anything unaccustomed in the first place. As he says, "Loneliness is a long-time friend", a friend who is his companion to looking up at the sky when he's not with his sensei/teachers/friends. As he does this, he believes that it's all worth it.

"跟回忆决别 跟人心划界

不怕再来一次考验

别问我 怎么选"

He tries to ponder his decision and his emotions. What he's done is "saying goodbye to his memories (not literally), carving borders in between him and others"...and he thinks of it as a trial. But he doesn't want to choose anymore, so he's really just trying to get away from having to choose in between what he's doing and what he wants.

"一个人困惑 一个人跳脱

这片荒漠

时间的飞沙 摧眼泪成花

会开好的

孤独与我 象久违的朋友

陪我看着没有你的天空"

He repeats the lines before the prior--trying to accept, but knowing he can't accept his loneliness. After all, being alone is Galaxian's greatest fear--and he still can't come to ends on his own feelings.

"一个人漂泊 好过你和我

加倍焦灼

我们发誓过 后来背弃了

谁都有错

接受故事 这样起承转合

尽管它比我相像中刻薄

还是觉得......值得"

The only end he can come to is that he knows he didn't want this, but he doesn't know how to solve it. In some part of him, he's conflicted over Kenshin having left and then returned without caring about him (or so he thinks), but he also wants to just have everything be the way it was again. But, he isn't sure if that can ever happen.

He comes to a conclusion that being alone is better than the two of them hurting each other over and over again. He says that they both vowed--just as they had underneath that one starry night, after he fought with Kokumajutsu in the Medieval Sect--that they would be together. However, these promises proved void over and over again. So, he evaluates--they're both at fault.

In the end, he believes--it's better to just accept his story, in this case, having to be separate from Kenshin, even if the story is different (in a negative sense) than he had thought it would be. And he finally thinks, though even this belief is hollow to himself...that he thinks it's worth it.

P.S. Didn't proofread this, sorry UwU

-Galaxian-