Thread:YingHe/@comment-36159587-20190908003152/@comment-36159587-20191004013117

Academic rant, here we go!

Ironic, since I’m supposed to be finishing that essay up, heh.

I’m not very happy with myself? Chemistry’s grade is dropping like a stone, probably from that one class I missed (because of leadership) and because I’ve yet to adjust my learning mentality to that class. Spanish dropped like a stone from that test and I’m overall frustrated with myself, and my abilities to organize, manage time, communicate with teachers, and I feel like I can’t do anything right.

Assumingly, other classes are going alright? I mean, I’m doing well in Human Geo (which is supposedly hard), I’m going well in English (100 on TKAM! Woo!), and my grade in Math is 99.67 (I’ve gotten 100% or more on every test and quiz so far). Leadership is going decently, and even though seminar is annoying, I know all the concepts they drill into us each year (e.g. not doing drugs, cultural identity relevance, bullying, harassment), and it’s not really a class.

But Chemistry and Spanish? Just hh.

Chemistry has a unit test soon and I need to memorize polynomials. In fact, I need to make up a quiz. My Spanish teacher thinks a 95% on the test overall (speaking, writing, reading, listening combined and averaged) is good, but it’s disappointing to me, and I was at a 100% percentage before, and it dropped 5 percentile points, which really stressed me out. I just don’t do well memorizing things without knowing why, and that’s my problem in Chemistry. There’s a new concept every day and I’m always pondering “Why”, and I’m always self-doubting. For instance, organic chemistry wasn’t all that bad, but all the memorization had me just completely distracted (like “Why does hydrogen only have one bond? What do branches do?”), and we don’t have time to ask questions. And quizzes? Miss one question on it and your letter grade hecking drops.

I need to get a good grade (meaning A+) to shift my grade up 0.14 percent, but when you get a lower grade than your average it goes down one whole percent, and it really stresses me out.

Alright, other than my grades, I just really need to adjust better. Like, Chemistry’s memorization, and even though I’m doing well in AP Human Geo, I need to shift my focus a bit to the longer term. And I really need to self-learn more for AP Chinese at home, too, since I’ll take that exam without taking the class itself, and meanwhile, Spanish is clashing with the learning Chinese part of my mind.

-Galaxian-