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 Updating Galaxian :

(Adding to) Personality:

Galaxian currently (as of 8/31/19) has two flip side states.

Galaxian firmly believes that (consistent/true) loyalty is a core value that should be possessed by all, and quite frankly, those who don’t possess this quality is practically scum. ‘Course, that’s not how he would phrase it. It’s more like he sees it as a very high priority, because he would do anything for those he cares for. Thus, he hates when his loyalty is taken advantage of, and even when another person he cares for doesn’t reciprocate even at least some sort of similar virtue to himself. Ironically, he hates being lied to by such people, and even more ironically, not telling him things that, in his eyes, are obviously important, such as things connected to welfare, it will also count as lying.

Even though he started off as a painfully persistent peacemaker negotiator, Galaxian has some changed viewpoints on fighting and violence. Though he certainly prefers negotiating, he’s seen that action is needed to bring about change, and especially on the defense. However, over a series of events, he has recognized that he needs to fight to protect those who are dear to him. Being a person of action, he won’t hesitate to go on the offense against his established enemies, but he will never attack (again, if he can help it) without trying to negotiate at first.

This explains why he uses his powers relatively frequently, and his rather confident, maybe even appearing as arrogant, attitude. His real negotiating attempts are in the narrator’s own stories, because every other person who’s trying to destroy some part of the world is so darn stubborn and unrelenting; why should he be? Especially since he values speed so, a virtue he obtained from Fallon, and he’s not the type to blare on and on while certain beings are destroying or killing.

However, it’s been proven that he won’t attack unless there is an immediate threat (mostly for those who he doesn’t have a satiated hatred towards), and he will still never kill innocents, if he can have a choice on the matter. Overall, he firmly believes that retaliating against chaos only causes more chaos; so, if possible, he will always use defense as the best offense, until he proves to himself that the only way to bring harmony is to defeat the source of the destructive chaos in question. Of course, Galaxian doesn’t mind chaos in general, just not the type with destruction and killing, et cetera. The deity has a lack of understanding of emotional feelings. Of course, he feels them, but he’s never truly comprehended them, or even constantly remember how to register the ways he feels. Mostly, he feels like they’re irrelevant—until they’re too late. For him, happiness is positive, and sadness is just some kind of mental pain that he can’t register until, mostly, it’s too late. His lack of comprehension for negative feelings/pain is mainly due to his lack of physical feeling in the first place, but it mostly leads to him not understanding how to cope with his emotions, especially since he’s prone to very drastic mood changes. Mostly, the negative emotions bunch together until they become scars, which is probably the reason for his feelings of angst—he notices all his negativity all at the same time, and there’s no optimism to counter it at all, for the scars hurt at the absolute worst moments. Another very bad thing he has is hiding his emotions, especially the negative ones, and even when he does try to vent, he ends up concealing most of the turmoil inside, anyways. Though, he hates being threatened, though he doesn’t always show it, which is practically the only sort of caring he shows towards himself. He also hates people going into his privacy that he tries so hard to keep. It’s mostly because he doesn’t understand the importance of coping. Mostly, he pretends he’s alright, such as smirking when he’s not actually confident, and smiling when he doesn’t actually have that happiness inside himself. Usually, it’s because he doesn’t want others to worry, in the rare occasions that he’s aware that something’s wrong with him. He cares wayyyy more for others than he cares for himself and his wellbeing, even though he still doesn’t understand what exactly love means to himself.

The consequences of not caring for himself really show. He often feels useless, blaming himself, because he doesn’t want to share that blame with others. Especially, it conveys itself in his lack of concern to his own wellbeing, such as depression and even being suicidal when too much is on him.

Headcanoning/Backstory:

Now, headcanoning for events that proceeded with Fallon’s characters, whose statuses are undecided (and if I recall correctly, their fates will be decided by Rune). I’m thinking about pretending they all done poofed, like most other people who left without warning did with their OCs, at least in my knowledge, especially since Real!Rune can’t actually keep Fallon and Kenshin, them being deities. But, I am keeping all the interactions, relationships, et cetera (that they happened)…except Galaxian made himself forget. Everything related with Kenshin, Kokumajutsu, Fallon, Enochi, he tried to vanquish in his mind so he wouldn’t fall more into that endless pit of trauma. He knew they disappeared; his (terrible) inner way of coping was somehow unconsciously forgetting them all. This will help me with my plots, but anyways, parts of his “story” that I kept (and are still present, or are not) are as follows. (This is WIP.)

Galaxian’s traumatic feelings are still present, though he doesn’t really understand them. However, they’ve lessened considerably, due to not having that knowledge of why. So, the events that caused his trauma are gone in his mind, which means his mood is now improved, hooray hooray. Despite of this, however, he is still a mood. Plot will continue on my side as usual, but without the memories of those he knew. GalaxE doesn’t know what happened to change his memories, and he will pursue the cause. Unfortunately.

This might cause complications with his personality, powers development, left-over memories, et cetera, especially with relationships formed through Real!Fallon’s characters. However, GalaxE no longer has the deep, meaningful relationships that he used to possess. I am protecting his welfare, at least for now.

Subconsciously, though, he still has the training of an assassin. It was due to him befriending the goddess of assassins, Fallon, and mainly the entire event chain of spying on Alexander and Kokumajutsu while impersonating as Whyatt. However, he no longer remembers this incident. However, he does remember assassinating/killing under Alexander’s orders. His memories of Alex are, too, very faded. It’s important to note (in case my memory fails in the future) that because he changes to fit the situation, world, or time, he became an assassin to fit his role at the time, masking his life presence, which is also why his presence is constantly hidden now, even without his conscious decisions. This is definitely still present. However, though he played a pivotal role in defeating Alexander, he does not remember the war at all. He does still remember Whyatt, but faintly. The spying ordeal scarred him a lot, and those scars are still there, especially since this was the first stage of angst, if that makes sense. All the parts of the plot coming together to make GalaxE who he is as a character today have not changed his character in any way, shape, or form.

Currently, Galaxian’s not aware of the existence of many characters affiliated with any of Real!Fallon’s, though he has a faint recollection that he knows them.

Unfortunately, this means he has forgotten these characters completely at the moment:

Kenshin, Enochi, Fallon, Rina, Kokumajutsu, Vixey, the Fox, the Monarch, Katori, Dairo, Himura Jirou, Himura Ichirou, Azamuku, Kaito, Harpy, etc.

Blurred memory:

Rune, Whyatt, Alexander, the CDs in general, Luna, Axton, Micah, Magnus, the rest of Groupe Akame, Hitan, Helen, etc.